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STRANGE DREAMS
Talk about them after midnight,
Is life really all that it seems?
(I wondered why the changes and what do they mean to me?)
Talk about it, I have an amusing life
Dreaming strange dreams.
Living in a world of shadows
Since I withdrew into my-self,
Wishing I were more mellow
Wishing I were someone else.
Talk about it having strange dreams,
Like living lands and time and space
Talk about it, I have a strange life
But is life really all that it seems?
Dreaming strange dreams, dreaming strange-strange dreams
Talk about it, I live a clean life
Living strange dreams, living strangely.
In the darkness I called out
And you weren't there
But I wanted to know you were alive
At that moment, felt you didn't care
In the darkness, I realized
I was alone just where I lay
Dreaming strange dreams about a strange life
Feeling more strangled by the day.
Talk it out now, having strange dreams
Talk about them after midnight -
Living clueless otherwise,
Talk about it having strange dreams
Like the strange world I come from
Is life all that it's cracked up to be?
I wonder,
Living a strange life,
Living strangely in strange dreams.
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IF THE TRAIN DON'T STOP AT NINE
Seems that I was always wrong
And you were doing fine
And I might just get enough
If I make up my mind
But I surely don't know
If I'm really in love
If there's nothing coming from you
Anymore
(There is nothing I can do.)
I hope that you still love me,
I hope that I'm only blind
But I know that I will give up
If that train don't stop here at nine.
If that train don't stop at nine
Then I know there's just no way
You're coming back again
(You know that I can't beg)
So if that train don't stop at nine
(it always stops on time)
If that train don't stop at nine
You left me behind.
Circumstances? Maybe so.
“Just an ordinary man”
You say you're” nothing special”
But you wouldn't understand
What powers you held over me
Like lightning shocking a stormy sea
You were storming over me.
You took my heart away
Just as easily as you left with it
And if you're coming back again,
I wish you'd bring it with you
Like a locket on your chain.
Feel like there's no justice in the world
When I wake up in the morning
My eyes see the world only halfway (and feel the silence)
But I know that I'm not crying
Just mourning for another day.
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FROM YOUR MOUNTAIN (unfinished…)
Surely I don't have to tell you
That I love you
And the ways I have left to tell you
Are not mine
For I've been to all of my greatest reaches
Within my power
And I'm running out of time.
There is no more reason for you to speak to me
From your mountain-side
I've put you on the highest “pedestal”
That is, closest to my heart,
But I can't do this anymore.
Cause I'm dying inside
And all I ever did was love you.
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PIECES OF THE FLAME
These chains that tie me down,
Tie me down to the ground…
And on this you know you can rely…
That as long as you're gone,
My life will feel wrong,
And I'll spend it all falling from the sky.
It's a painful earth I'm walking over,
My feet dragging crossed the ground
And I wake up to what is now over,
Always feeling that the Sun is going down.
No matter how hard I cry, I'd never wish to die,
But am always falling from the sky,
I should try, but I'm always feeling the same….
Broken pieces of, broken pieces of the flame.
The Light Upon My River
You are the light upon my river
You're the soul that makes me shiver
And I find myself drained of all the tears
You are the one who's always with me,
Don't you know I feel you're in me,
You're the light upon my river of fear…
Seems I was looking all over and through the thunder
For someone who mystifies me the way you do
I was going to look forever,
And it's no wonder
Because I knew somewhere out there was you.
You are the light upon my river
You're the soul that makes me shiver
And I find myself drained of all the tears
You are the one who's always with me
Don't ya know, I feel you're in me
You're the light upon my river of fear . . .
At a moment's notice you were at my window
And knocking down my doors
You were the one who was always kind and loving
Throughout all the madness
And someone I'd never known before -
And while my heart is tearing through me,
I want you to know it
I will love you forevermore.
You are the light upon my river,
You're the soul that makes me shiver
And I find myself drained of all the tears
You are the one who's always with me,
Don't you know, I feel you're in me
You're the light upon my river of fear . . .
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First of July
You . . . will live forever in my soul
Like silent rides beneath
a sky lit by cool moonlight
In places--I no longer go
You will live forever in my feelings
Like a castle at the end of a long escapists road,
I stand here like a drifter now
Drifting through the dreams
circling forever in my soul,
With beating hearts and sweet faint whispers
Fine words, now only faint echoes
You stole my heart away from me--
Your love came through despite the distance
Though I guess it's you who will never see?
The First of July . . .
I found you like a sweet surprise
Though I'd known you for awhile,
And now “just living” in the lonely days you left for me
When you left me behind . . .
I can't go on “waiting” here
Like a scarecrow
Solo between empty rows
In some far-off field you'll never visit
With a warmth
You will never know,
Still, I'll park my dreams there . . .
And I will mail you the key
Though I know in my heart,
that I'm not in your soul, forever
The way you'll live on inside of me. . .
Now I'm Going On Again
I've seen love, and I've seen love
And I've seen fire
I've seen the locks on the chains to earthly heaven
I've seen your face
I've seen you wild
I've seen you drained
I've mothered your inner-child
I've seen the life
I've seen the pain
And now I'm going on again
I've seen nothing that you ain't seen before
Just kept looking and never shut the door
Never closed my eyes
I just dreamed of another time
When fantasy could come calling
Out from the deep winter's night
What is forever for?
I've seen love and I've seen love
And I've seen fire
I've seen the locks on the chains
To earthly heaven--
I've seen your face
I've seen you wild
I've seen you drained
I've seen looking so inspired
And I've seen enough
I've seen enough
And now I'm going on again.
I knocked on your door a little too long
And you know, I'm finally gone
Will you ever look back at me?
I've knocked on your heart, and you shut me out
And now I'm done,
Now I think I'm coming down.
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While You Believed in Nothing
Wishes were made for wishing
And I've just seen the lies I've been shattered with
Cause you were a big time liar
All the while a so-called friend
But I never wasted away, I never wasted a tear
Because I'm real
And you know I've got no fears
I'm not wrong for believing you!
How could I know, when my instincts tell me something's good
And you bring it all down so heavily-suddenly
Like a raging storm brought overhead
I guess I should've known the rest
But I believed in you, like I always do
I believed in you,
While you believed in nothing . . .
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Couldn't See It
Seems we laughed and then we'd cry
And sing in peace and loving spirits
And then we drowned and didn't know how to take it,
Like fools we just faked it,
And found ourselves on separate paths . . .
But now I know we should've listened
To the ones who really knew better
And found ourselves going down the right road you know…
For now , I'm crying for the peace we left behind
When we were summer lovers
And felt peace of mind
Even when it rained, and lacked the sun
We could find a world of things to dream of
It's over now, and I'm going slow
But I'm full of fears you know I never felt before
Like a season of only storms,
I'm passing through,
And finding myself looking for you---
Looking only, for you---
For years it seems I've been holding back
Not knowing the way
Though it's been only months
I find myself ashamed
That I couldn't see at the time,
I couldn't see-it
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